Living in a hiatus

2 weeks of silence on this page is because of an avalanche of activities, bouts of ill health, bad internet connection and an arthritic set of fingers which refused to keep up with my outpouring of excellent prose.  If only I could convince everyone, including me, that this was the truth!! Even if you believe that first sentence, I know it’s a pack of excuses and false justifications.

My loved ones have been visiting me. Winter has arrived with its clear blue skies and even clearer, crisper air. Cooking and baking walked into the daily time-table, and improved Net connectivity made net-surfing, movie viewing and online reading a reality ( thank you, BSNL).  It has also been “stash rummaging time”, to plan some big wholesome knitting projects for the long winter evenings. That would include long pleasurable hours of surfing the Net, and going through the pattern books for the right pattern to sink my teeth and fingers into.

That, in short, is the list of excuses which I have been using to avoid writing and blogging. Every day, it has been the same story. I would find something really urgent to do (clean out the drawers/take everyone for a spin to old Ranikhet/ bake apple and cheese scones) and keep doing these urgent things till it was time to go to bed. And every day, I hated myself for doing this.

I had allowed the demons of doubt and fear to cloud my mind, paralyze my writing fingers and make me choose mindless chores over the uplifting, enjoyable and focused activity of writing here. As days passed, the doubts and fears became stronger, the alternatives gained urgency ,and the little voice of “lets get back to writing” became fainter. My blog was going down the familiar path of incomplete projects, unfinished decisions and deep regret. I had been there many a time, and I will be damned if I go there again.

So therefore, my dear readers….I am back. And I am determined to remain here. This month of no-blogging has been a month of desert living (not dessert). I have thought out four-score blog posts and written none of them. Good habits of yoga, eating fruits, doing a daily de-cluttering exercise around the house…they have all bitten the dust. I have collected a zillion things on my plate and am doing none of them.

Blogging had made me focus on my thoughts and daily activities, and had brought strength and discipline into my day. And I have missed this page, I have missed reaching out to you and it is time to  make amends.

So, as detailed here ( why do I feel as if these writers peep into my mind before writing their post for the day? How do hit the nail on the (my) head every time? Without fail?), I am committing to a post every day till I cross over the Habit Hill hump , and this is where the October energy is getting focused.

So here’s to a/another new beginning…a/another fresh attempt at scaling the cliff of excuses and reaching the point of making a new habit stick to me and becoming a part of me.

Cheers !!